one man's ramblings about trying to lose weight and gain clarity, peace of mind, and love.
and, of course, details of all of those failures and successes along the way.
Thursday, October 21, 2010
It's safe to say that I feel the worst I have felt since arriving in Israel. I am at times so depressed that I wonder what I am doing here and at other times so apathetic that I couldn't care at all about what I am doing. It is completely obvious to me that I have not recovered to the level of being self sufficient and able to be around people nor have a job where I am required to be somewhere every day. I M so depressed and I am convinced that I will never recover to a level which allows me to live a somewhat normal life. I should give up the illusion.