i woke up today and i am pretty screwed up mentally. i have to take care of some logistics for my family to come here and it's not going well. i am so tired of being here in the apartment that i want to go home. except that i know i will feel the same way at home. i'm tired and unmotivated and just have no desire to do anything. i missed a few nights of my medication, so i know that that has something to do with this, but it's not an easy quick fix.
i hate feeling this way. it's simply not fair.