Monday, May 23, 2011

it's been a while...

so, just some quick updates and random thoughts:

a siren is a siren is a siren: the fire siren from a neighboring town went off in the middle of the night a couple of nights last week. I had a dream in which i was in a barracks, with two roommates who i went to high school with and haven't seen (nor wanted to see) since. i was smoking hookah, and apparently knocked the hookah over when the siren went off. we all went outside (yes, i am aware, going outside in the middle of a rocket attack doesn't make much sense.) onto the balcony and watched. Oh, and I had a flak vest on.

i really like problem solving with computers. I haven't done it in so long, but it's nice to use my brains in ways they haven't been used in a while.

i'm working on things trying to get me a job, and that's exciting.

i will head up to boston for memorial day. and then after that, my brother and i are going to visit albany.

so things are good!

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

thoughts of the night

so with the ambien and the clonipin, i feel quite high before bed. i'm a little wired about college, and am searching alternately for apartments, classes and apps for my phone.

i am interested in taking a digital art class or two, plus hebrew, plus history of all sorts plus judaic studies. so yeah, i'm interested.

time to log off

Oh, things are gonna happen.

So I have been accepted to University at Albany. I officially am a college kid again come August 29th. I am so excited about this, it's crazy. I didn't get into Binghamton, but Albany was my first choice, so obviously these things work out for a reason.

I have spent some time now scouring the internet for apartments close to campus. I also set up a class schedule. But these things are tentative at the moment. First I need to speak to a counselor to see what my requirements are for my core classes, and what credits will transfer. Also I need to take a road trip and go see the campus. I have yet to be there, and a familiarization run is required.

I got a new phone with Sprint the other day. I am on the outs with Verizon, and am testing Sprint's service. I have an HTC EVO 4G. It's my first android phone, and I love it. I'm playing with it and learning as much as I can.

My medications have been tweaked a little bit, but no adverse side effects so far. I also am on a different anti-anxiety med, because the xanax was not helping me. I actually had a pretty bad panic attack the night I got back to NY. but none since. And I'm on a small regimen of Ambien, in the hopes that it gets me on a decent sleep schedule. So far, it's been alright.

I miss my friends back in Ashdod, and those scattered across the US and Canada, but will be seeing some of them soon I hope.

Thanks for stopping by.

Monday, May 16, 2011

Going back to college!

I got my letter from Albany today and I am officially going back to college this fall. I'm pretty damned happy about it! There's plenty more I want to write but I am a bit tired. Hope everyone is well out there.
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Saturday, May 7, 2011

first kiss

the first girl i kissed, well, she actually kissed me. it was at a movie, some stallone movie, the specialist (now that i've looked it up on imdb.) there were five or six of us there, two of my friends and their girlfriends, who were her friends. having no frame of reference as to romance, as i was a 13 year old boy, i knew what i saw in movies. about how the time becomes right for a kiss. well, that's just not the way it went down, she just damn near sucked my lungs out of my mouth. she dumped me the next day. i have no idea why and i have long since stopped trying to figure out the actions of the fairer sex.

why do i tell you this? i really don't know. i was thinking about it, and figured, that'd make a decent post.

also, i guess my thinking about kissing and romance and sex has always had that romantic edge, where i want to like a girl, and want the girl to like me, rather than just be a randomly available body for the moment. i feel like i am quite rare in this belief. which is not an educated guess, it's just a feeling.

but, hey. feelings are good, right?

so there you have it.

waiting for monday night

so i leave for the airport on monday night. i have been in "wait" mode since i bought the ticket last sunday. i've accepted having to go home, and my mind is now on to other things. however, i am still here, and still dealing with all of these people i live with and see most days. unfortunately i am not getting along with some anymore, and that just causes frustration. it also makes me less upset to be changing my living situation. so maybe it's a good thing.

i went out and got drunk and saw some friends last night. today, i am going to go and lay on the beach and soak up some sun i think. we'll see.

i'll be back in new york on tuesday.

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

going home.

and right now, considering the people i live with here, i'm almost happy to leave. fucking people.